http://www.soundstrue.com/bonus/michael_beckwith_answer
This is what I am listening to now. Here is a 51 minute audio.
Sunday, February 6, 2011
Current study of physics and the unified theory
Ten dimensions of space, string theory, searching for the unified theory of the entire universe, all matter is made up of vibrating energy, how different structures can modify the vibration of energy, and how little of our universe we currently understand. Good stuff.
You must first be who you really are.....
"Often people attempt to live their lives backwards: they try to have more things, or more money, in order to do more of what they want so that they will be happier. The way it actually works is the reverse. You must first be who you really are, then do what you really need to do, in order to have what you want." - Margaret Young
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
The difference between my hardwiring and actually thinking
Just press "E-8" and I get angry. Just press "G-2" and I get worried. I used to think that I was "responding to the world". But now I can see that I have, mostly, been a hardwired set of "my greatest hits" just waiting to get triggered within myself.
Monday, January 31, 2011
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Friday, January 28, 2011
This is the true joy in life....
This is the true joy in life, the being used for a purpose recognized by yourself as a mighty one;
the being a force ofnature instead of a feverish selfish little clod of ailments and grievances complaining that the world will not devote itself to making you happy.
I am of the opinion that my life belongs to the whole community and as long as I live it is my privilege to do for itwhatever I can.
I want to be thoroughly used up when I die, for the harder I work the more I live. I rejoice in life for its own sake. Life is no " brief candle” to me. It is a sort of splendid torch which I have got hold of for the moment, and I want to make it burn as brightly as possible before handing it on to future generations.
George Bernard Shaw
Steve Jobs commencement address at Stanford in 2005
This is very much worth your time and attention.
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
mastery and fluidity with connection
The meaning and purpose of life for human beings is connection. We may respond to that purpose by constructing a "story" about why not to connect. But, the game is connection. Resistance to connection is one way to play the game. Another way to play is to gain mastery and fluidity with connection.
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Trapped inside the world of our "thinking".
Most of what we call “thinking” is actually internal “chatter”. Chatter is that little voice that is critical, judgmental and always on loud speaker inside.
True “thinking” is only occurring when we are consciously developing a new structure of thought outside of the everyday common chatter. True “thinking” is a creative act.
From Webster’s Dictionary: “Incantation (in kan TAY shun) n. - a chant; the repetition of statements or phrases in a way reminiscent of a chant.” Most of what we call “thinking” is a repetition of the same phrases and feelings and “thoughts” over and over again in a manner that “invokes” their physical reality. Most of our feelings and thoughts are not real other than to the extent that we chant them and “invoke” them to become real.
(I continue to work on distinguishing for myself “feeling” like a true observation of the Now versus those same “feelings” I have over and over again like endless chatter stuck in a loop.)
There is an automatic, already program running inside of you. Maybe part of it is the anscestral, genetic code you got through your parents. Part of the programming you learned from the shared patterns of the community.
Most of us, most of the time are trapped inside the world of our “thinking”. The chatter inside of our head – the conversation that we are – is creating a world. From the perspective of our view, we see the world in a certain way. The way that the world is, is a function of our individual world view.
Every day we wake up and repeat our incantation to ourselves. “Arghhh, I hate work.” “I am so sick of mother calling me about that same issue.” “I am going to stay busy all day long so I don’t have time to socialize.” “I know that I should not eat/drink/smoke that but I’m going to do it anyways.” "I can't do it."
The very first thing to do is to become aware of the already, always conversations running in your mind. Become aware and allow those conversations to be. You can’t change the old conversations by will power or by more thinking. But you can breathe into them, consciously. You can observe the already, automatic reactions that you are, breathe into them and then choose whether to act that way, or not.
What if we could break the pattern and mentally rehearse something new each and every day? “What is the greatest ideal of myself that I can be today?”
Before you get out of bed, picture how you will interact with your spouse. What kind of communication do you want to have at work? Rehearse it until you feel solid in it. Then get up. Then go demonstrate the new version of you that you have created.
Your “default” mode – your normal way of being – is merely the way that you have practiced being over and over again. It is ok to start practicing something new.
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Finding your authentic voice
What does it take to find your authentic voice and to stay in it?
Along my journey of awakening, I found a fragmented version of myself called “Dead Ted”. For years I lived an emotionally dead life. Dying emotionally will, eventually, drag the physical body with it. At the bottom of my dark night of the soul, I remember hoping only that I would live longer than my mother (merely as a kindness to her).
Later, as I began to excavate the layers, barricades and numbness from around my heart, immense feelings of joy and playfulness emerged. I reconnected with my passion for living.
“Dead Ted” was a stoic, unemotional, shell of a man who mimicked other men looked up to in childhood. He was always ready for physical confrontation (though it never came) and never available for true heart-to-heart connections. The role of “Dead Ted” actually made life easier. He didn’t have to be vulnerable. He didn’t have to take emotional risks. He didn’t have to experience disappointment or even joy, for that matter.
Peeling away “Dead Ted” from my heart and from my façade, revealed what about it made life seem easier.
I was born a highly empathic and intuitive baby. Aren’t we all? Quickly that baby learned that something was wrong with the world. Either people around me were dishonest, unhappy and in deep emotional pain or else the baby had it all wrong. The logical choice for baby Teddy was that the adults had it all together and I had it all wrong. For an infant, the adults are gods; simple as that. Clearly, my intuition, empathy, and “knowing” were messed up.
In addition, my game in childhood was to be the “good little boy”. When you are “good” then your parents will love you. Get good grades, do what you are told, and learn about life from the adults.
The end result of all this was to think, act and speak the way that I thought would best be rewarded with the love of my parents.
Years later, as an adult, “Dead Ted” was a handy way to act because I didn’t truly know my own feelings or my own thoughts. In particular, I did not know my own voice. Being dead was a convenient way to cover over the fact that I didn’t know where my authentic center was and I might be afraid to look. Better just to stay focused on my goals and make good money. Everybody can agree with that.
On the journey of awakening and reconnecting with my heart, I discovered that I spoke with a constricted voice much of the time. I still knew how to do a stern, scary voice as “Dead Ted”. But I really had no idea how to do a grounded, congruent, powerful voice while maintaining open heart vulnerability and loving connection with other people. No idea how.
The journey of awakening led me to begin exploring what it means to be a congruent human being. What does it take to have your head, heart and voice all totally in alignment; acting as a single, unified being? How do you do that?
I had known what it means to be fragmented. You know how, maybe, your head wants to be “secure” by making a lot of money and your heart wants to be a hip-hop street dancer; if that is what it wants. Or, maybe, you don’t pursue the woman of your dreams but you find yourself in a decades long marriage that “made a lot of good financial sense”.
So, what does it take to find your authentic voice and stay in it? First, you have to uncover it. You have to find out who is doing the speaking now. Is it a “cute” voice speaking? Or a resigned one? Is it a “victim” talking? Ever try the “nice guy” rap? Is there a thin, shiny veneer covering up rage?
If you’re like me, underneath any pretend voice or act is probably a whole lot of fear. But you can’t see it until you start digging around down there. Maybe you once decided that “I am not good enough”. So you keep trying to prove that “I am good enough” but it is always on top of “I am not good enough”. Or maybe its “hopeless”. How about “shame” and “guilt”? Those are some pretty deep wells to uncover.
If you can get yourself to the place of the ultimate observer and you can hear “who” it is that’s doing the talking when you are speaking……then you are getting somewhere. Once you can hear your voice clearly for what it is, then you can hear whether it is your true, authentic voice in complete alignment with every cell in your body. Or if there is a fractured part of you doing the talking.
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
How do you know when you have hit the bottom?
How do you know when you have hit the bottom?
When you keep getting stuck and you keep having that same self-limiting pattern shows up again and again in your life, how do you know that you have hit the bottom and that it is time to move on?
Maybe your life has turned to crap in some way. Maybe you are a financial mess. Maybe you keep having the same ugly relationship – over and over again – but with different people. Maybe you keep running smack into that same personal health issue like an addiction or otherwise trashing your body.
On the other hand, it might be that your life “looks” pretty good. You’ve got the money. You’ve got the stuff. But you keep running smack up into that glass ceiling; what Gay Hendricks calls the “upper limit problem”.
Regardless of your unique variety of being stuck, the question remains the same. Over and over you hit that wall, you hit that ceiling, or you hit that floor. And, you are going to keep doing it again and again until, finally, you have had enough. You have hit the bottom.
The true bottom looks like this. First of all, you are totally sick of it and you are done with repeating that same pattern over and over again.
Secondly, in a moment of inspiration or truth, you can see that it is not “them”. Its not your parents or your spouse or your boss. They just happen to be the one standing there at the moment. But wherever you go, whomever you are with, the negative, self-destructive pattern shows up. Where ever you go…….there you are.
Third, you are ready to take action. You are going to get a coach. You are going to do a workshop. Maybe you are going to do those things that last book told you to do. But, this time, you are going to handle it.
Here is a tip from a brother on the journey. You can’t handle the self-destructive pattern alone. If you could, you already would. You need support.
Get a coach. Get a therapist. Do an experiential workshop. Maybe do all of the above. If you want some suggestions, message me.
There are two completely different ways to be with your self-limiting pattern. One is that you use it as a story and you wallow in it and its your greatest excuse. The other is that you have had enough. You have hit bottom.
Which way do you choose today?
Monday, January 17, 2011
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